A Christmas Prayer for Those Who Don't Go to Church

December 13th, 2011

Lord, I don't go to church much.

I don't go at all . . . well, I go at Christmas.

I'm home then.

I feel drawn to it.

I like the Christmas Eve service,

the coolness of the air.

I feel like a kid again . . . It's surreal.

I know folks make fun of people like me.

What can I say? I've drifted . . . but there is a pull back.

Are You saying something to me?

I hear something in the sermon, sometimes,

but mostly it's the music and the candles.

What is it about those candles?

And the darkness?

The darkness . . . it's the light, I suppose.

Light and darkness.

I know about light and darkness.

I live in both.

I've got some of both in me.

I'm basically a good person, but I struggle . . .

I know about light and darkness.

But I want to be closer to the light.

I want to light that candle and sing those songs.

And in the dark street shineth, the everlasting light.

I would like to live in that light, Lord.

I would like to meet Jesus.

Maybe what I'm saying is that I would like to be born again . . .

maybe that's what Christmas really means.

Ken Carter is Senior Pastor of Providence United Methodist Church, Charlotte, North Carolina. With acknowledgement of authorship, this poem may be reprinted in church bulletins and newsletters.

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