There's more to living than surviving

August 25th, 2021

“Are you really a cannibal?”

Ellie was one of the regulars during my office hours. She showed up mostly to pitch ideas back and forth with fellow humanities students. They liked hanging out together. And I think they could tell that I enjoyed their company.

This time Ellie came alone. Having heard something appalling about me, she was feeling betrayed. In Ethics I had taught all this stuff about the inherent worth of every human being. And I eat people—even if only symbolically—as my weekly religious practice?

“What makes you ask me this?”

“Professor B said that Christians admit that they are cannibals!”

“Ah, I see.”

Prof. B facilitated an extra-curricular writing group. Each term those students would work together to write a novel.

Though not especially religious himself, Prof. B was not intentionally anti-Christian. He had been raised by devout parents and knew the basics of the sacramental tradition of his youth. But that spirituality no longer worked for him.

Like many good teachers, Prof. B prompted independent thinking and creativity by challenging his students’ assumptions. He sometimes made outrageous claims to force them to revisit ideas that they had received from authority figures.

This technique did not always work according to plan. For instance, Ellie had no religious background on which to draw.

Her parents had raised her in an agnostic home. With the best of intentions, they had believed that she should make up her own mind about spiritual matters.

As a result, Ellie did not hear Prof. B’s words as a hyperbolic provocation. She understood him to be explaining what sacramental Christians actually believe.

In the philosophy classroom, I never wore my Christianity on my sleeve. During class sessions, my aim was to help students acquire critical thinking skills and to weigh for themselves what some of the great minds in history had to say about life’s big questions.

I never confused myself with one of those great minds. But if students wanted to talk to me later about my own thoughts and beliefs, I was happy to exchange ideas with them.

That’s why Ellie knew that I am an Episcopalian and that celebrating the Eucharist (or Holy Communion) is how I worship on Sundays.

Prof. B had said something like this: “Christians believe that they eat the body and drink the blood of Jesus. Right? Well, that’s cannibalism, isn’t it?”

Honestly, I don’t think he had me in mind personally. He probably just wanted to shock the group into thinking deeply and honestly about their own religious beliefs.

But for Ellie, this was a serious charge against me. If I could practice ritualistic cannibalism, she couldn’t trust or respect me anymore.

In John’s Gospel we do in fact hear Jesus say this: “Those who eat my flesh and drink my blood abide in me, and I in them. Just as the living Father sent me, and I live because of the Father, so whoever eats me will live because of me.” (John 6:56-57)

Those words were a deal-breaker for some of his followers. They cut ties with him. For that matter, Romans used the charge of cannibalism to slander the early Christians. So it’s not really surprising that Ellie would find these ideas shocking and repugnant.

Here’s what I told her.

Our physical hunger points to a deeper spiritual longing. We need food to sustain our biological life. To survive. But there’s more to living than just surviving. We long for something that makes this life worth living.

Giving love is what makes life worth living. But we can’t give what we don’t already have. So our souls hunger for love.

Jesus came to shows us that God’s love is limitless and unconditional. It is always on offer. It is always there for us. Wherever we are. In whatever state we find ourselves. We just struggle to see it and feel it.

In the Eucharist, we eat bread and drink wine. We may be distracted or irritable, hungover or stressed out, resentful or filled with remorse. But in communion we glimpse, if just for an instant, that Jesus is somehow present in that bread, in that wine, and in the people next to us.

That one moment shows us that Christ is at our school, in our office. In the sunset and by our sickbed. God’s love saturates this world. Saturates my life. I am the beloved. So are you.

There’s the big “T” truth. God is always pouring love—pouring the very essence of the divine life—out to me and to you and to all the creation.

Ellie nodded her head and sat silently for a bit. “Thanks, Doc,” she said and left. I was glad to see her at the next office hour.

This essay originally appeared at Looking for God in Messy Places. Reprinted with permission.

About the Author

Jake Owensby

Jake Owensby is the fourth Bishop of the Episcopal Diocese of Western Louisiana. Jake is the author of several books read more…
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