Changing my mind about God

March 6th, 2018

A gestalt shift is a visual switch of perspective. While looking at an unchanging image, we see first one thing and then another. For instance, in the picture below you can see a duck. Or a rabbit. Or a duck:

Another familiar example of gestalt shifts is the vase or chalice that can also be two faces peering at each other:

The lesson we draw from gestalt shifts is that perception is interpretation. The universe we inhabit constantly bombards us with an infinite variety of colors and sounds, smells and textures. Such complexity is more than we can possibly take in all at once, so we filter and sort all of this before we even become aware of it.

The philosopher William James said that if we didn’t bring some sort of order to this tidal wave of input, we wouldn’t have what we know as experience at all. We would be awash in a buzzing, booming confusion.

In other words, what we see we have already interpreted. We don’t see things simply as they are and then figure out what they mean. As another philosopher, Martin Heidegger, put it: We don’t just see. We see as. And our assumptions—the stories we have already accepted about how life works, what we’re like, and what people in general are like—shape our perceptions before we even realize it.

The phenomenon of Gestalt shift suggests that higher consciousness involves checking to see if another perspective is available. As new perspectives emerge, the assumptions that have been shaping—and perhaps narrowing—our perceptions begin to surface.

Gestalt shifts are not only perceptual events. We can change our minds. Most of us have experienced a change of heart about things or people. We’ve come upon a new way to see our situation.

Jesus came to trigger a Gestalt shift that would ultimately change how we see ourselves, our fellow humans, and the entire universe. As Richard Rohr puts it, Jesus came to change our minds about God. At least, I can tell you that Jesus has done that for me.

As a college freshman I entered an agnostic phase. During spring break that year, three of us spent Spring Break in Daytona. As we were strolling the Boardwalk, a woman roughly our age approached us and asked, “Have you accepted Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior?”

Fresh from studying the problem of evil, I asked the young woman how she squared faith in a loving God with the overwhelming amount of human misery. Unfazed, she responded that God does not cause this suffering. That’s when I said, “So God is just a spectator, floating above us at a safe, comfortable distance?”

Years later, I realized that my assumptions about God were woven together with and distorted by my childhood experiences of my father.

Distant, uninvolved, and self-absorbed, my father would intermittently make it clear that I didn’t measure up to his standard of manhood and would point out changes that I should make. And then off he would ride into a sunset of his own choosing until next time.

In other words, my experiences with my father influenced my perception of God. Only, I had not the slightest idea that this was so. In time, Jesus presented me a very different perspective of God in a messy world. And I think that during Lent we have the opportunity to let him do that for all of us yet again.

In the Episcopal Church, many congregations will begin the Eucharist with what we call The Penitential Order. In other words, we start our services with a confession of sin. As a part of the liturgical movement, we have the option to recite the Ten Commandments or the Decalogue.

Additionally, on the Third Sunday in Lent of this year, the Old Testament reading recalls the giving of the Ten Commandments.

This focus on the Decalogue is at once a spiritual opportunity and a spiritual risk. The opportunity lies in seeing God from a Christ-inspired perspective. The risk arises from the assumptions many of us have not yet unearthed and challenged.

Some of us will bring to the reading of the Ten Commandments inherited, unexamined assumptions about a law-and-order God: God created us and handed us rules to follow. When we follow the rules we will be rewarded. Violating the rules brings punishment.

This reading renders God as stern, judgmental, and apparently more interested in rules than in real people. If we accept this concept of God, our highest spiritual aspiration will be rigorous adherence to the rules for fear of punishment and desire for reward.

Jesus interprets the Ten Commandments very differently. Look, for instance at the Sermon on the Mount. Among other themes, Jesus draws our attention to the commandment against killing. (Matthew 5:21-22)

In essence, he says this: Scripture tells you not to kill. But I’m here to tell you that even when you fail to respect the dignity of another person you’ve as good as committed murder. The contempt you heap upon others injures their souls. And just as importantly, your actions reveal that you are suffering from a fatal heart ailment, a soul sickness. You do not recognize God’s beloved as worthy of your own love.

Jesus loves us enough to show us the coldness of our own hearts. And he’s not telling us merely to shape up or risk losing God’s love for us. Jesus is God’s love in the flesh come to heal our weak hearts.

Jesus shows us that God is Lover and Healer, not a Punishing Judge. When we see this about Jesus, the Ten Commandments reveal themselves not as rules but as a vision of human life. God, the loving God, dwells in our midst. We are glad for one another’s good fortune and safe in each other’s embrace. Knowing ourselves as loved with infinite abandon, we love each other without fear and without reserve.

With some images that offer a Gestalt shift, I struggle to see more than one perspective. I have to turn my head to one side or step back a few paces. I need something to move me into a new place to see things anew. That’s what Jesus has done in my life. Jesus has changed my mind about God.

This article originally appeared on the author's blog. Reprinted with permission.

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